Sarah Cornwell, author of What I Had Before I Had You, on tour January 2014

Posted By on December 5, 2013

What I Had Before I Had YouAbout What I Had Before I Had You

• Hardcover: 288 pages
• Publisher: Harper (January 7, 2014)

Written in radiant prose and with stunning psychological acuity, award-winning author Sarah Cornwell’s What I Had Before I Had You is a deeply poignant story that captures the joys and sorrows of growing up and learning to let go.

Olivia Reed was fifteen when she left her hometown of Ocean Vista on the Jersey Shore. Two decades later, divorced and unstrung, she returns with her teenage daughter, Carrie, and nine-year-old son, Daniel, recently diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Distracted by thoughts of the past, Olivia fails to notice when Daniel disappears from her side. Her frantic search for him sparks memories of the summer of 1987, when she exploded out of the cocoon of her mother’s fierce, smothering love and into a sudden, full-throttle adolescence, complete with dangerous new friends, first love, and a rebellion so intense that it utterly recharted the course of her life.

Olivia’s mother, Myla, was a practicing psychic whose powers waxed and waned along with her mercurial moods. Myla raised Olivia to be a guarded child, and also to believe in the ever-present infant ghosts of her twin sisters, whom Myla took care of as if they were alive—diapers, baby food, an empty nursery kept like a shrine. At fifteen, Olivia saw her sisters for the first time, not as ghostly infants but as teenagers on the beach. But when Myla denied her vision, Olivia set out to learn the truth—a journey that led to shattering discoveries about herself and her family.

Sarah Cornwell seamlessly weaves together the past and the present in this riveting debut novel, as she examines the relationships between mothers and daughters, and the powerful forces of loss, family history, and magical thinking.

Sarah CornwellAbout Sarah Cornwell

Sarah Cornwell grew up in Narberth, Pennsylvania. Her fiction has appeared in the 2013 Pushcart Prize Anthology, the Missouri ReviewMid-American ReviewGulf Coast, andHunger Mountain, among others, and her screenwriting has been honored with a Humanitas Prize. A former James Michener Fellow at UT-Austin, Sarah has worked as an investigator of police misconduct, an MCAT tutor, a psychological research interviewer, and a toy seller. She lives in Los Angeles.

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Sarah’s Tour Stops

Tuesday, January 7th: Bibliophiliac

Wednesday, January 8th: Books à la Mode

Thursday, January 9th: bookchickdi

Monday, January 13th: missris

Wednesday, January 15th: Jenn’s Bookshelves

Monday, January 20th: Kritters Ramblings

Wednesday, January 22nd: Books in the Burbs

Thursday, January 23rd: Sweet Southern Home

Monday, January 27th: The Well-Read Redhead

Tuesday, January 28th: Bibliotica

Wednesday, January 29th: Conceptual Reception

Thursday, January 30th: Turn the Page

Monday, February 3rd: Book-alicious Mama

Tuesday, February 4th: BoundbyWords


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